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Friday, March 18, 2011

berkahir cerita kita mirul,...

arghh,.. ya allah,. hnya kau sje yg mampu thu ap perasaan ak mse nhe,. xder spa yg leyh faham ak,.. ak dan dye,. mirul,. dh putus,. n dh xder pape lgi anta kami,.. mngkin tuk selamaya,. ? xpernh terlintas at aty ak tuk terima permintaan dye kali nhe,. tp ak terpkse,. ak terpakse relakan dye,. lepaskn dye,.. dye pikir dye,, tp ak?? ak rase cm nk mati,. terus dmm seh,. sdh yg amat sgt,. . hm,..
apalah daya ku menghadapi semua ini,. bila sebenarnya ak tahu kau akn pergi,. air mta ku x dpat menggungkapkn lgi,. perasaan yg ada di dlm perasaan ku,. kebahagiaan dan kesedihan ini,. dtg di saat yg sama,. terhadap diriku,. leburnya hatiku,.. hancurnya hati ku,. melepas kau pergi,.. dari hidupku,. dari sisi ku untuk selama-lamaanya,........ thnks mirul .. thnks b,. bab pnh syg kn beby,.. knangn kte indh kn,.yea, walaupon kte x pernh berjmpa,. tp bg sarah,. hti sara xpnh lari dari mirul,.. i love u b,.. tp pas nhe,. ucapan uh,. dh xleyh sara luah kn kat mirul lgi,. bab,. kte dh,.... xnk ckp,.. !!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,... ada jdoh kte jmpe lgi ,....

*jgn pernh lpe knangn kte eah mirul,...
*jgn pernh lupakan sarah.,................... salam... ~

what happen now !!

Aku rindu dye sgt2.. knp dye berubh ekh,.. asl dye dh x mcm dlu ekh,. Sekrng nhe,. Setiap kata2 dye menyakitkan hati ak,. Kecik deh hati ,.. ak x faham y,.. single? Yeah,. Tu status yg ader at fb dye ,. Just SINGLE,. Tp kteorng c0uple lgi,. AND ME? Just follow whatever his said,. Ak nk bntah,. Tp x tau y ble n dye ak jdik moisttt,. N ak rase bengap,. Huhu, .ak ader gak ckp x nk about sttus uh.. but,. U know,. What he said? Dye ckp ak nk menunjuk2 yg ak dh ader de bf,. Please !! xder mkne nyer,. Tp ak just nk puaskn hati ak jerk,, ak nk sentiasa n dy,. Ak x faham urgh,.. ap slah ak ekh,. Ak dh setia,. Ak dh bg yg terbaek tuk dy.. nhe un ak luahkn at blog pon dye ckp poyo ur,. Geli ur,. Hello !! nhe jerk tempat ak nk luah kn perasaan,. Ak nak luah kn kat dye,.. tp ,.. dye xpnh u dgr,. Just dye ckp ak ske men tdoh2 dye urgh,. Saket hAti mcm uh,.. he right,. N me wrong? ** at sni ak bkn nk menggungkit,.. just nhe tempat ak nk luah kn perasaan,.. ak xder member yg terdekat tuk ak kongsi,. Lau ak nk ckp un,. Ak x bleyh… t x terkata ,..bab jenis ak,. Bler dh jmpe member2 ak,, bak kata orng,. Nk sdh un x leyh..
Ak nk AMMIRUL yg dlu. Ak xnk skng,… ak xnk……………………………………………………….. atau ,.. dye dh btul2 brubh? No no no … don’t want,.. putus kn hbungn cm ne dye selalu mintak at ak? Hm,.. piker jp,.. piker2,.. xleyh,.. ak x leyh putus n dye, bab hati ak dh syg,.. sgt2.. nhe bkn tpu2,. Nhe betul2,.. huhu..
Dlu,. Ak percaya sgt at dye,.. but now,. Y ak x leyh nk cye dye,. 100 % ????? just 50/50 jerk.. hah !!
U know what.. skng,. Setiap tingkah laku dye mencurigakan ak,.. curiga sgt2,.. x tau knp,.. perasaan CURIGA uh sendiri yg muncul dlm hti ak,. . hati x penah menipu kn . . . don’t know lah,. Ak x thu ap lgi dugaan tuk kteorng lpas nhe,.. kekal ke? Ak harap sgt2 kekal,.. amin,.
Ak mohon sgt pada Allah, semoga Allah beri kami kebahagiaan,. . kekal.. hilng rase curiga ak.. n yg terbaek tuk dye n ak,. Aminn,..
Ak tahu dye boleyh berubah,. insyaAllah,.. just,. Ak x thu lah bg dye mcm mne,.,adakah ak yg terbaik tuk dye? Adkah ak yg paling teruk tuk dye? Spe ak sebenarnya at hati dye?? Dye masih pedulikn ak ke? Knp skrng,.. dye selalu sgt,……… wt ak sdh,.. wt ak risau,.. wat ak menangis,.. wat ak takut.. wt ak curiga?? Knp ekh,. Ak x faham.. ak dh berusaha jdik yg terbaik tuk dye,. Tp,. Lau dye xnk berusaha jdik yg teerbaik tuk ak,. Xder maknenyer sume nhe, just sia2 jerk hubungn ktee,… ak syg hbungn nhe,. So,. Ak un nk dye syg hbungn nhe,. Cm ne ak syg,..
Ak cte2,. Tp pada hakikat nye,.. ak syg sgt at dye,. Sgt2… ak xder laki laen,. I just want with him,,., every moment,.. I hope he like me,.ak rindu sgttt,.. at dye,…… ak syggg dyeee,.. nhe x poyo,. !! nhe bkn men2 .. nhe,. Perasaan ak !! . . . . . . . .
Well it’s good to hear your voice
I hope you’re doing fine
And if you ever wonder
I’m lonely here tonight
Lost here in this moment
Time keeps slipping by
If I could have just one wish
I’d have you by my side

I miss you
I need you
And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don’t see your face
Nothing’s changed, no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday
Say you love me more than you did before
And I’m sorry it’s this way
But I’m coming home, I’ll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay

Well I tried to live without you
But tears fall from my eyes
I’m alone and I feel empty
I’m torn apart inside

I look up at the starts
Hoping you are doing the same
And somehow I feel closer
And I can hear you say


Oooohh I miss you
Oooohh I need you
And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don’t see your face
Nothing’s changed, no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday
Say you love me more than you did before
And I’m sorry it’s this way
But I’m coming home, I’ll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay, always stay

I never wanna lose you
And if I had to I would choose you
So stay, please always stay
You’re the one that I hold on to
My heart would stop without you

I love you more than I did before
And if today I don’t see your face
Nothing’s changed, no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday
Say you love me more than you did before
And I’m sorry that it’s this way
But I’m coming home, I’ll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay, I’ll always stay
And I love you more than I did before
And I’m sorry that it’s this way
But I’m coming home, I’ll be coming home
And if you ask I will stay, I will stay, I will stay
Diaries sarah,……

Thursday, March 10, 2011

cerita kau dan aku

Dear diary,

Ak x thu, ap yg ak sendiri rasekn,. Ak rase cm something perasaan yg pling ak benci ! benci sgt2, !! knp hbngn ak n dye skrng dh bnyk sgt berubh, . ak tkut, perasaan dye at ak un tetp berubh,. Ak xnk dye x syg ak lgi, ak tkut, bab, ak syg dye sgt2,. Nhe lah sush nyer, .bler ak dh syg kn someone uh.


Ak memng ske sdh pasl dye,sumenye kerana dye,, it’s me,. Bab bg ak, ‘kerna sekali cinta,… ak teap cinta,’ knp rmy sgt nk menghancurkn hbngan kteorng,.. ap slh yg ak dan de wt,. nhe ke dugaan? Atau,. Nhe ke jln terakhir kte b,.. ? beby x nk, ak syg dye, . ak dh ml erase jauh sgt n dye, kdng2 ak rase ak cm dh x knl spe dye, kteorng dh selalu gadoh,…… knp antara kte xder tolak ansur? Ak jerk mengalah, ak pon ader perasaan,.. kdng2 ak terpkse mengalah,. Bab ak xnk gaduh,.. ak x nk dye sebut perkataan yg pling gue benci !! “CLASH” hm,… bler ak nk tny dye, dye ckp ak ske tembk dye, ak xpenh ader niat nk tembak dye atau x,. ak just nk thu kebenaran, ak xnk ditipu, ak dh serik, ak x nk hilng orng yg ak syg lgi, ak dh rse penat sgt nk sdh,.. b, beby nk b thu, beby syg b sgt, sgt2, yea, memng kte jauh, xpnh jmpe,. Xpnh bertembong pun, just dlm fon,gmbr,fb, n many more lah, tp,. Perasaan SYG uh,. Msti akn hadir kn,.. cinta dtg x diundng, dan pergi x dipinta,.. it’s true? Bkn tipu,. Nhe yg sebanar2nyer,. Kdng2 ak nk ckp n dye, nk discuss n dye, xder kesempatan tuk ak luahkn.. setiap manusia ader perasaan yg berbeza2 kn,.. myb bg dye,.. ak nhe p0yo,… but bg ak,.. nhe lah PERASAAN yg ak pedulikn,, n ak kisah tentng sume nhe,.. ak jujur n perasaan ak,.. ak xnk tpu diri sendiri,.. ak xthu lah nk ckp cm ne,. asl sush sgt ak nk cte kn at sini,.. ak nk taip cm ne un ak x thu,.. tuhan jerk yg thu cm ne perasaan ak at dye.. ak syg dye sgt2,.. sgt2,,.. tp knp ak rase kecewa sgt2 bler dye marah ak,maki ak,knp x bleyh kte bincng baek2 kn … n ak nhe knp bdoh sgt !! knp ak x leyh nk ego??? Knppp!!! Yea,myb ak un rase ak x setaraf n dye,.. dye orng mne ak orng mne,. Tp,.. hati n perasaan ak,. Tetp at dye,.. ak x nk clash… ak x nk hilng dye,. Msti dy fikir ak bdoh x nk lepaskn dye,.. cm ne lah, 1 jam sje,.. ak dh boleyh ingt at dye,. Tp mengambil mase tuk ak nk lupkn dye,… lgi2 ble kte dh syg kn someone uh,.


sumenyer salah ak?? yea,. terpkse ak ngku,. ak xnk gdohh,.. i still love u,.. i love u,.. ak dh letih n sume nhee,.. penat sgt,.. skrng ak tgh tnggu keputusan dyee,.. baek atau ,,. x,. ak trpkse tme,. lau itu yg terbaek tuk dye,. i just want the best for him,.. walaupon ak yg merana,.. huhh.. tabah kn hati sarah,........



i just want always with u mirul,.. i love u so muchh,..